3-1 Mary DeMuth (me!)

Feb 13, 2017Restory Show

This week I’m sharing a very vulnerable story–the time I visited the place where I was raped at five years old. This pilgrimage happened right after Christmas last year, and this is the first time I’m publicly talking about it. (I shared a bit in writing with my email subscribers. If you’re interested in becoming a subscriber to get exclusive content, click here). I wanted to start season three off with a bit more of myself (and, yeah, it’s a lot of myself). But it’s also about Jesus, what He does, how He heals, what He creates from trauma.

How Our Stories Intersected

Alas, I’ve continually intersected with myself. So this episode is more about how I chose to face one of the most difficult stories of my life.

[Powerful: that time @MaryDeMuth visited the place where she was sexually abused. Hear the story on the #RestoryShow.”]

As in all my episodes, I pray for you at the end. It’s my sincere hope that you’ll walk away from the Restory Show changed and challenged.

Here are some pictures from my visit. They’ll all make sense once you listen to the story.

The End

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  1. Dee Boyd

    “Going Back” is not easy. About seventeen years ago, during a post-abortion bible study, I was encouraged to go back to the clinic where I had two abortions. I was molested by the physician during my first post-abortion exam which made returning even more difficult.

    I also got the opportunity to confront the man who raped me in my mid-twenties. His response was the rape was the best sex he ever had. Both of these events triggered memories I buried and feelings surfaced that took years to work through. Today, I am healed, whole, free and restored. Praying for your complete healing Mary… Love and Blessings. 🙂

    • Mary DeMuth

      Wow. You’re brave, brave, brave. Thanks for sharing this. You inspire me.

      • Dee Boyd

        And you inspire me. God makes both of us brave. 🙂

  2. Jill

    Thank-you for sharing your story.
    So good to let the secrets out.
    Be gentle with yourself as you continue to heal.
    It takes time,
    God is teaching you and loving you.
    I am walking a similar journey
    Peace to you

    • Mary DeMuth

      Thank you so much, Jill.

  3. Narae Shin

    thank you so much for sharing your story. I have been dealing with a similar foray to my past and it was such a balm for my soul to hear about your unshakeable faith as well as your pain/struggles. At times, I feel as if nobody can mourn with me as I mourn because my past is so ugly… but I’m thankful to know that it isn’t true. Thank you again. One passage of Scripture that has lifted me past my discouragements recently is 2 Tim 4:14-18. I pray that it encourages you as well.

    • Mary DeMuth

      I’m so glad my story helped you. What a blessing!

  4. Mary R

    Thank you for your courage and compassion as you share this intimate and horrific trauma. You have really given such a gift to so many with your words of faith in the midst of unimaginable pain. God bless you, Mary. I pray for your continued healing as you reach out beyond suffering to claim victory.

    • Mary DeMuth

      Thank you for prayers and your kind words.

  5. DragonLady

    I was crying before you broke, and I just wanted to give you the biggest hug. Thank you for sharing your story. {{{HUGS}}}

    • Mary DeMuth

      Thank you so much. I’m grateful for so much healing, even though it’s hard!

  6. KFDP

    Don’t worry about the fact that you tear up when telling your story. You tear up because you are also thinking of all the other little ones out there who are living through this hell or lived through it. Tears are about remembering, mourning, caring and loving. Praise God that He cares about you and uses you to show His care and love to others. It’s way past time that we all get on our knees and pray for healing of sexual abuse on this land and world.

    • Mary DeMuth

      Amen about getting on our knees. So, so needed.

  7. Nom Johnson

    Thanks for letting us into your life Mary, and doing it with such openness, wisdom, humor, and courage (in general. Not here necessarily. Haven’t listened yet, but have downloaded it, for the right time.)
    You’re SUCH an inspiration. And all glory to God who strengthens you, and equips you for this special role you play in the lives of….fellow unwilling sufferers. Thank you.

    • Mary DeMuth

      Your words are a bath of grace. Thank you.